Prolific Digestions - Installment #1

Stuck in the in the isolation of one's own mind.  Trapped in the purgatory of self.  How could one escape the constant analyzation.  

Patients is yet still a virtue that does not come easy.  I thought maybe it would....but I was poorly mistaken.  

The filter stays on.  It must.  There really isn't a choice about it, is there?  

The oh so familiar abyss of chaos.  Like a mermaid in the sea, she sings to me.  Taunting me.  Seducing me.  

I can't go back though.  I know what the end holds.  

If you have to ask, then there is no need to for you know.  

Live happily in your ignorant bliss.  It's better that you don't know, don't understand.  Shit, I don't even understand, but I know.  I know it's there, right under the surface.  Festering....

These eyes.  The memories that stay locked inside.  They are what's left.  Reminders of past, beautiful, ugly, happy, painful.  A road map of the path you can't allow yourself to take.  The ink saturated in your skin won't allow you to forget.  

The filter must stay on...

A war of the mind and heart.  And I think one is losing.  This four letter word haunts me.

Maybe I'll spontaneously combust.  The ideas, the desire to achieve more, burns inside.  The sleeper within.  

Unconditional, beautiful.  If only maybe it could be a reflection of me.  The only love that doesn't scare me...the only love that keep me safe, the only love I can put my faith in.

A self loathing, narcissistic view.  

Of course it's safe.  It's unconditional, it's pure, it's simple.  

You coward.  

Toyota Commercial ( 1st AD)

Alright, the good news is, I've been working soo much I haven't had time to "blog" for the past two weeks. So let's get straight to it.

My producer called me up and asked me to come on to this project. Same Director as last time, except, this time it's a paid gig. Gian said he was so pleased with my work ethic last time, that he just had to have me AD this next project. Luckily it was only a two day shoot, on Sat. & Sun. I was scheduled to work at the restaurant, but how could I pass up the opportunity to work on set and get paid. So thankfully, my Buca boss, J-Dog, gave me the weekend off to work the commercial.

It was a cool gig. The crew was a little bigger this time and I felt so right AD-ing. It's kinda of like when you break in a brand new pair of shoes. Feels goood. We stayed on schedule, got all the shots, and managed to do with little or no problems. (Good job me!!) So that officially locked in my spot as "the team AD".

F#*k yeah baby....

Gianfilippo Pedrotti & Richard DeSanto on Location 35MM Toyota commercial

Week 2 (WIP)

So in case you were wondering, yes it's for reals, and totally legit!

So it's really quiet here right now. There is kind of a weird vibe in the air though. For everyone else, it's their last week. So there still isn't much for me to do. I've spent a majority of my time browsing the web, you know the usual facebook ect. (I do have to say I've been spending a lot of time playing a new facebook game, Mob Wars, it's fun, join my mob if your my friend!!) But after this week is over, the office is going down to five and there will only be little ol' me to help everyone. So I figure this is the quiet before the storm, cause I know it's going to be hetick.

Oh yeah, I don't like being new at anything, ya know? That whole learning curve of what's what, and who's who, and how to do this or that. It's not knowing what to do... is lame. I don't like to suck at anything that I do. But the whole situation is very rare, so I'll make due, I'm just complaining. F#$& I'm just happy to have a steady paycheck every week dammit!

After work today, I'm going to pick up my little sister, Monique. She's gonna come hang out with me and the doggies for a couple days. She's working now and she's supposed to start jr. college in a couple weeks, so this is the only window of time that works out for her. Not to mention, her birthday is coming up at the end of the month. F#&$ man, my baby sister is gonna be 18. Sh$* man, I remember changing her dirty diapers!? Well, I figure this week we'll chill and celebrate. (that is, when I'm not working) We'll see, things should go good.

WIP (Warner Independent Pictures)

So in case you didn't know, WIP is the "the arthouse division of Warner Bros. " They have recently announced that the are closing down. (what a shame? No?) However, there is still one film that needs to be released before they close shop.

"Ok, so what", your asking yourself. Since WIP is closing down, they need some extra help to finish releasing this new Alan Ball film, "Towel Head". So that's where I come in. I'll be working for the VP of Publicity to help release the film. I might even get to meet the director, (who is working on this cool HBO series called, "True Blood") and make the premiere too? (Wouldn't that be cool?)

So after all the cool things, that might be coming up, the gig is up until they close, which is in the next two months. So maybe this could lead to something else. But as of right now, I've finally landed a full time gig. (Even if it's only for 2 months)

So wish me luck, cause I'll still be working at the restaurant on the weekends. Yes, that means I'll be working seven days a week. I'm not worried cause it's better then not working, ya know?

Some exciting stuff might be happening, so stay posted!

Thank goodness for friends...

So I thought I would put out the "good" vibe today, cause this week a couple job prospects came up unexpectedly.

My dear friend, Jen Sheck, called me about a possible two month temp position with Warner Independent. If you don't know, Warner Independent is closing down. However, they still have an Alan Ball film to release before they close shop. Hopefully if it the position gets approved, I'll be working with the VP of Publicity for the next two months. Jen threw my name out there when the idea of a temp came up. So thanks Jen, good looking out girl.

I recently spoke to a friend/colleague, Rob Hurwich. (I co-produced his music video.) So Rob teklls me that he has recently sold most of his equipment, put all his stuff in storage and has decided to go meditate with some Monks is California. Yeah, really, I'm not making this up. I was surprised, to say the least. However, he sounded excited and happy about the decision, so I'm totally happy for him. I can't wait to hear from him after his experience. So Rob told me about his last job and that they might be possibly looking for someone. He gave me an email address and told me to forward my resume and wait and hear back. So Robbie is looking out, throwing me a bone. Don't know if anything will come of it, but hey, it's something.

Today, I've actually got time sit a write something. I was sleeping yesterday when my phone went off. Yeah it was 11am, but hey, I didn't got to bed till 4am. So I reach over, totally half asleep and see that HBO is calling me. (Shit! I have to answer this!) I got asked if I could be in the office within the hour. Being the hungry workaholic I think I am, I said, "of course!" and hoped in the shower.

My friend/colleague, Jose Villalpando, got some bad news and had to leave abruptly. He called HR and asked specifically for me to come in and cover his desk. Thanks for thinking of me Jose.
(I'm hope your doing alright brotha. Hang in there man. And don't worry I'll hold down the fort here, cause I got your back. )

So things have been looking up for me this week. So I'm keepin my fingers crossed and waiting to see what pans out. Let's hope for some good new on Monday!

To all my peeps out there, good lookin out yo! And if your reading this, stay connected, cause it's our twenty-something network that is help everyone get to where they want to be.
;)

The Dark Knight

One word;

Epic.

I can't stop thinking about the movie.  The Best two and half hours ever.  I think I have to go back and see it again.  

Heath Ledger was freakin amazing as "the Joker".  I don't even know what to say.  Maybe I'll articulate better after a second screening.

Last weeks re-cap

Bueno.  Hola.  Hello.

Alright, first let's start off by apologizing to you readers out there.  I don't know who you are or how many of you there is.  But I know there is at least one.  And if your reading this right now, it might be you.  So, sorry to keep you in the dark this last week, but...I was in a bad mood.  Since my last post, I just knew I took a one way trip to negative city.  I didn't want to go there, but it happens from time to time.  I didn't feel the need to take you along with me.  

I have to admit, writing everyday is a task.  I know it's good for me to some degree, but I get sick of myself.  Really, I do sometime.  So I thought it best to not put off that negative energy out there in the world.  So there it is.  

There was one cool thing that happened last week.  The "French Party". Next post will be about that.  Other than that.  That was it.  Worked this weekend, waiting tables.  Yeah, you know it.  

I can't promise daily updates, cause if nothing is going on, it's usually the same thing.  Hangin at home with doggies, lookin for work.  I'm not saying, I won't be writing, it just might not be seven days a week, that's all.

Stay posted.